Insecure about myself,worried about having sex with crohns
Im a 21 year old guy and have had servere crohns for over a decade and have been really ill. Ive just had an op to remove 2 fistulas n am down to my last 300cm of small intestine,the rest is all gone. Touch wood my crohns for the last month is much better,im weaning on PN onto solid food. Im hoping Hickman line will be out in December.
Anyway now im out a lot more and am in clubs and pubs and am starting to live my life and meet girls,however im massively insecure about my body and even though i know its not the case,just cannot get past the idea of someone being accepting enough to accept me for who i am and have a relationship and sex with me.
Ive had my colostomy 11 years and no-one bar my immediate family knows. I have met a lovely girl but am afraid to take it any further with her due to the bag and the fact my body looks like Freddy Krugers done a number on me. Ive had horrendus leaks before and allways think that could happen during sex. I know plenty of people with stomas with wifes and gfs however they are in their 30s or older.
While i know not all girls are like this the majority i come across are all for one night stands and telling there mates everything. I also feel its harder being a guy rather than a girl,as its generally the guys who have to ask the girls out and not vice versa.
I know i have problems with self esteem and live in fear of riducle and nasty comments from people should they find out i have a bag.
I guess im asking if there are any guys/girls in there late teens early 20s who have felt like this and how you've dealt with it.
Thanks for reading