waiting for my results...is it Crohn's?
by Belle
(Melb.Australia)
Hi there, my name is Belle,i am 24 years old, for the past 3 years or so, i have had alot of tests,test after test after test... the only answers i got was that i just have a case of IBS, i knew deep down that IBS couldnt be causing me these problems,there must have been something else...
you know that feeling where there's something just not right with the answer you get,well that was me...
i just feel miserable at times, in pain, tired,sometimes i get the feeling of blacking out, where you start feeling deaf and things start going dark and then it goes away..and the embarressment of my toilet problems and the mucous(i even feel uncomfortable saying that in the forum where you all know where im coming from)...i have good days and i have bad days,he bad days are awful for me...
what did i do wrong for me to get this way,im not a party animal, i enjoy a quiet glass of wine with friends at home, i try to eat healthy, i dont do drugs, i try to excercise when i can....i dont get it!
i wake up a skinny person (average size 10)and then go to bed a bloated fat person,i dont even want to see my body at night...
some days i just want to cry from the annoying pain, especially after eating or having some wine,i just want to curl up and go to sleep in hope that i wake up feeling better and if possible normal again...
i have had 4 attacks of uveitis since may 31st, and recent blood results have come up that i am a little iron deficient( even though i have had iron deficiencies since a teen)also a deficiency in b12,but also my ESR results were very high. so 2 years after my last load of test it was time to have another lot done, in hope that i finally get an answer in what they now believe is Crohns, i had a colonoscopy and gastroscopy 2 weeks ago... and i had the pill cam last tuesday , and i get my final results on the 19th of December....
i just want to know, so that i can start trying to do all i can to help myself, even just a little, so that i can start trying to be the person i was before this all happend to me...
did i mention i have a husband and a 6 year old son, i want to start being better for them too, so that when my husband asks how my day is, i dont have to say how my tummy hurt so bad or how i dont feel well, i want to be able to say"i had a great day and i feel fantastic".... i hate this! i hate feeling helpless at time, when i really am strong...
thank you for listening for my story,im glad i stumbled across others who might feel as i do..Belle.x