Deep Dark whole "Crohn's Depression"

by Ida
(Mississauga, ON)

Sometimes I feel very alone. Not use to this depresson that goes with having Crohn's. I don't really have anybody to talk to. On what we that have Crohn's actully go through. I am so tired of being tired, I am tired of the nausa, fever, fatigue and pain. I am tired that people really can't understand unless they are living it. I had surgery about 5 years ago. The constant every day nausa and fatigue is just to much to handle some days.

My family is supportive, but at the sametime.... sometimes they make me feel like this is all in my head. I push myself just a little harder just to get through the day. I try and hide how I really feel. But they have noticed I am just not happy anymore. I wear a mask and when someone asks how I am - I always say fine when actually I feel like cramp. I don't even know what normal is anymore. I get so excited when I have one or two days of just feeling good. Then that horrible feeling comes back once again and just take over my body from head to toe .The once happy, strong and independent person I once was seems to be gone. This deep dark whole is just to much right now.